"What lie ? Aditya what are you exactly talking about ?" I asked him and he arched his eyebrows and said.
"Depression ! Suicide ! Your family issues ! I never knew you were hiding this much inside your heart !" He said and i looked straight into his eyes replying back.
"Aditya it's not as easy as it sounds ! It's easy to bury our problems rather than dig a grave for our own thoughts ! Those thoughts should be neglected and ignored before someone or something uses it against you !" I replied back still looking straight into his eyes .
"I get it now ! The question that always lingered inside my head whether if you were cold or just arrogant and rude ! The answer to that is none you are a sweet and kind person who has always been pushed down in their life ! Because of that negletence they forget that they have a life of their own ! A mind of their own and a sense of their own ! Don't let these things overpower you ! I know you are strong but every single rock breaks when any external force is applied to it ! Your family is acting as that force but don't worry i will always be there as a barricade no matter how big the problem is I will always be beside you to face it !" He said looking straight into my eyes.
"Don't do this aditya !" I said and he looked at me confused.
"What ?"He asked confused.
"Don't give me false hopes ! What justification will you give when you crush those hopes ! It was a phase or you did it all out of pity ! I don't want you to pity me !" I said and he left my hand and i turned back to leave when he said something that made me hault on my steps .
"Say what you really want to say ! You want to tell me that i shouldn't fall in love with you because you don't deserve it !" He said and i could sense his steps approaching me.
"That's not for you to decide gauri ! It's for me to decide and i have made my decision!" He said and i turned back only to find him so close to me There were just inches left between us.
"What ! What did you decide !" I asked him and he moved his hands to cup my cheeks and smiled before answering.
"That you deserve all the happiness in this world ! I promise i won't ever lie to you but i can't promise that i will never fall for you !" He said and i looked up at him straight into his eyes and said.
"Don't worry i will take care of that ! Aditya why are you not understanding i don't deserve you and never can ! You are too pure to start with ! I can't even compare myself with you ! Infront of your words my world is intensely small ! Where your world starts my world ends there ! My behaviour can never be better ! I am a monster and i don't deserve this ! Don't give me false hopes when you are going to break it !" I said with visible tears in my eyes so to not get him to notice my tears glincing eyes i just moved a little far from him.
"Yes you are right ! I know ! I know you may think that you are a monster but every villain has an origin story ! I want to know what they did ! I want to know how many times you needed me but i was never there ! A heart is a very unpredictable organ ! It can have a heart failure , a heart attack or beat fast when it seems the person it always desired for !" He said and i looked at him.
"What do you want to know ? My origin story ? I am not a bloody movie !" I said looking at him.
"I know you are not a movie but stop playing with other people's feelings ! When someone cares about you at least smile if you can't appreciate ! I don't even want your appreciation all i want is a smile on your face tell me how i can make that happen !"He said looking straight into my eyes.
"You think you wanna know everything ? Okay ! I will tell you ! But how do I know that after i tell you everything ! After i tell you what happened or what is happening you will not leave ? You will not pity me ?" I said in a sad tone and visible tears in my eyes . He moved closer to me and hugged me .
That was the moment i broke . I didn't want to but that hug . It felt nothing but warthm ! The warmth i always sought for.
"It's okay ! It's okay ! It's okay i am here ! Cry as much as you want i will stay up my whole entirety if i have to !" He said hugging me tightly as i snuggled more into his neck.
Aditya's pov-
"I can't do this anymore aditya . I have had enough of this !"She said crying and i felt like i had lost , lost in protecting her .
"It's okay ! It's okay ! I understand!" I said patting her back . After ten minutes she was still crying so i picked her up and laid her down on the bed and sat beside her holding her hand.
She cried ! A lot ! she cried for almost an hour ! With every single tear she shed it felt like my defeat . I don't know why i am feeling like this but i want to protect her . As long as i can till something parts her and takes her away from me .
Aditya what was my fault in all this ? I was a kid ! A naive kid who knew nothing ! I don't know what happened i was eight years old at that time all i remember is my mother fighting with my father and my brother stopping me from going out ! He beat my mother alot that day ! He even kicked her out of the house ! We were homeless ...
"All of our relatives broke ties with us ! That was when sakshi's mother ! My mother's friend Sonali aunty helped us ! My mother built the whole enterprise by herself for me and now they are even after that !" She said that in a faint voice drifting into sleep and after saying all of that she slept still holding my hand.
I stayed there holding her hand for as long as i can remember before sleep took over me too.
In the morning ~
Gauri's pov
I woke up before aditya and quickly got ready trying to escape from him . I realised what all i had told him it never bothered me about anyone's thoughts but it bothered me as to what he must be thinking about me .
The whole day aditya called me ten times but i muted his calls . My so called family members were again upto something and troubled me the whole day . They even filed a lawsuit against me saying that i was illegally taking over the company which should have been theirs .
I was so frustrated that i went and drank . I never drink but today I drank because i was out of my mind .
Aditya's pov -
I called gauri 10 times and she replied not even once .
I went to her office but she was also not there i asked the receptionist for sakshi's number because I know she is mostly with her only but sakshi said that she was not with her too . I was driving here and there when i saw her car parked outside a bar so i parked my car and went inside only to find her sitting alone on a chair with a glass in her hand .
"Gauri !" I shouted from a distance and she looked at me and smiled.
"Aditya !" She waved to me and i went towards her . She smelled of alcohol so i picked up her drink and smelled it and it was obviously alcohol .
"Gauri ! How long have you been drinking for ? " I asked her looking at her not believing her .
"I am not drunk ! Shut up ! Give me back my drink !" She said but i held it up my head and she stood up trying to reach it but she slipped trying to do so i caught her from her waist .
"Gauri ! Come on let's go home ! You need to sleep ! I said and she whined !" I picked up her phone and kept it in my pocket and picked up her heels and then her bag and then picked her up in my arms .
"You know aditya ! I wanted to tell you something!" She said as i took her out the bar to the car .
"What ?" I asked only to find her already sleeping in my arms . I kept her inside the car and then sat and drove the car . I left her car there because I had no other choice than that.
I picked her up from her car seat and took her upstairs while she was whining the whole time.
I laid her down on the bed but she held me from my wrist and mumbled something in her sleep that made my eyes widen in shock .
I wanted to tell you that -----------
Meanwhile somewhere ~
"Kill her !"
"What ?"
"Finish her ! I have had enough of her nonsense ! "
"But father we can't kill her like this ! She has to sign those papers first and that husband of hers what will we do about him ? "
"He doesn't even love her ! It was an arrange marriage! He would be happy if she dies ! If i would have killed her the day she was born then it would have never reached till here !"
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